Fill Your Heart With Love

Go watch "The Grinch", people. Great movie. The best movie about Christmas ever made.

Then go to the Bonus Features and watch the Faith Hill music video. It's cool to see how Faith Hill acts like the Grinch's conscience or guardian angel throughout the video. Interesting...


I feel you, Christmas
I know I found you
You never fade away.

They joy of Christmas stays here inside us
Fills each and every heart with love...

Where are you Christmas?
Fill your heart with love...


--Faith Hill, "Where Are You, Christmas?" from "The Grinch"

Christmas, I Think I Found You

End Chorus from The Grinch:

Where are you, Christmas?
I think I found you
This time, I'll make you stay.

We'll all be singing
Bells will be ringing
Now and forever
[On] Christmas Day.

Are You Always with Me?

The band is supposedly Christan. Insteresting. Amaya would love this song, I think.

"Never Alone--BarlowGirl


I waited for you today, but you didn't show
I needed you today, so where did you go?
You told me to call, said you'd be there
And though I haven't seen you, are you still there?

I cry out with no reply
And I can feel you by my side
So I'll hold tight to what I know
You're here, and I'm never alone.

And though I cannot see you,
And I can't explain why
Such a deep, deep reassurance
You've placed in my life.
We cannot separate
'Cause you're part of me
And though you're invisible
I'll trust the unseen.

I cry out with no reply
And I can feel you by my side
So I'll hold tight to what I know
You're here, and I'm never alone.

This Is My December

Two Linkin Park posts in one day. Hey, Amicus should appreciate it...

"My December"--Linkin Park, from Reanimation, 2003

This is my December, this is my time of the year
This is my December, this is all so clear.

This is my December, this is my snow covered home
This is my December, this is me alone.

And I
Just wish that I didnt feel
Like there was something I missed
And I take back all the things I said
To make you feel like this
And I just wish that i didnt feel
Like there was something I missed
And I take back all the things I said to you.

And I'd give it all away just to have somewhere to go to.
Give it all away to have someone to come home to.

This is my December, these are my snow covered dreams
This is me pretending, this is all I need.



Will take requests for an MP3.

You're All That I've Got

This song has never really had as much meaning to me as it does now. There are parts to underline or put in bold...but now the entire song is in bold. I'll bet that only Amaya knows who I am talking to, but Amicus can take a guess. This means the world to me.

If you want a really awesome remix, tell me and I'll send you the MP3.


"Faint"--Linkin Park, from Meteora, 2003

I am a little bit of loneliness, a little bit of disregard
Handful of complaints, but I can't help the fact
That everybody can see these scars
I am what I want you to want, what I want you to feel
But it's like no matter what I do, I can't convince you
To just believe this is real
So I let go, watching you turn your back like you always do
Face away and pretend that I'm not
But I'll be here, cause you're all that I've got.

I can't feel the way I did before
Don't turn your back on me
I won't be ignored
Time won't heal this damage anymore
Don't turn your back on me
I won't be ignored

I am a little bit insecure, a little unconfident
'Cause you don't understand, I do what I can
But sometimes I don't make sense
I am what you never wanna say, but I've never had the doubt
It's like no matter what I do, I can't convince you
For once just to hear me out
So I let go, watching you turn your back like you always do
Face away and pretend that I'm not,
But I'll be here cause you're all that I've got.

No...
Hear me out now
You're gonna listen to me, like it or not
Right now...


I can't feel...
...Time won't heal...

Prove You're Something Like Human

Where are you, Christmas? Why can't I find you?
Why have you gone away?
Where is the laughter you used to bring me?
Why can't I hear music play?
My world is changing, I'm rearranging
Does that mean Christmas changes too?

I wonder what we are all waiting for. Our futures are trying to beat the door down, and here we are doing the best we can to ignore the knocking. But someday the door will come crashing down. And we know it. What are we gonna do when that happens?

Will we forget how to say goodbye?

This world is slowly turning upside down. What are you holding on to? Do you even realize that it's turning? Do you care?

The greatest of teachers won't hesitate
To leave you there, by yourself, chained to fate

I alone love you, I alone tempt you
I alone love you...fear is not the end of this...

What happened to innocence and all that stuff? What happened to childhood? What happened to those fairy tales?

What happened to us? We used to be so perfect. Now we're lost and lonely.

Where are you, Christmas?
Do you remember the one you used to know?
I'm not the same one
See what the time's done
Is that why you have let me go?

Finding Christmas

This year for December, let the theme be about the real Christmas. What does it mean to you? Find out. This is an actual search—a treasure hunt, so to speak—and the treasure is different for each seeker. The journey must be done alone, and it must be done by the twenty-fifth. You are not obligated to find something, but if you do you can share it if you want.

Here’s a little thing to get us started on thinking about the actual meaning behind this holiday season, and what it means to us individually. Think carefully over the words and see how they apply to you.

“Christmas, Why Can’t I Find You?” –Taylor Momsen (Cindy Lou Who),
from Dr. Seuss’ How the Grinch Stole Christmas



Where are you, Christmas? Why can’t I find you?
Why have you gone away?
Where is the laughter you used to bring me?
Why can’t I hear the music play?
My world is changing, I’m rearranging
Does that mean Christmas changes, too?

Where are you, Christmas?
Do you remember the one you used to know?
You and I were so carefree,
Now nothing’s easy
Did Christmas change, or just me?



Good luck.

The Scientist

Hey guys! So I’m doing okay.

There’s a whole story about things that have happened to me over the last twenty-four hours. The more spiritual part I’ll record in The Rainmaker Confessions, so you can go there. But here I’ll talk about what happened to me today. Sidenote: I have been sick, and I had not eaten since around six o’clock on Monday (technically Sunday, because I barely ate anything on Monday. I think I lost a ton of weight.)

In my first period I was being an idiot and ignoring Ben (Harry), and then just to be stupid when he left the room I asked this girl named Kira how come he was “mad at me”, which was a totally prideful bold-faced stupid lie and a dumb thing to say. (Wow…run-on sentence.) I warned her not to tell him that I asked. Well, after class I was walking down the hall and I heard Ben call out: “Hey you! You in the red!! Come here.” I thought he was frustrated that I was talking to Julie, a girl he’s having issues with. It turned out that Kira had not listened to me and told Ben that I thought he was mad at me.

Ben gave me a total face-off right there in the middle of the hallway. I was scared almost for my life. I’ve never even known he could be so cold and angry. It ended in him stomping off, leaving me alone in the hall. He walked up to Kira, who had just been passing by, and he said, “I just left Marcus, and now I’m afraid that I destroyed our friendship.” Depressed and regretful, he disappeared into the crowd.

It took me some time to get over my initial shock. Kira and Matt Call tried to talk to me but I refused to open. It seemed like everything was going completely to hell. I didn’t feel like I got my prayers answered last night, and I was going to have a very heart-to-heart prayer/devotional this morning, but my alarm didn’t ring. And my body was feeling worse than usual, stomach and throat wise—and when I say stomach, I don’t mean hungry; that was affecting my body in different ways via extreme lack of coordination, hallucination, trouble sitting down, trouble standing up, etc.

Eventually I ditched my second period and went looking for him. When I found him, I just asked if we could talk. He started acting like everything was all right, and took me around back to outside the school.

There I broke down in front of him and had the most honest face-to-face talk I’ve had with anyone. (Well, I did share my “cloud” with him once, but that doesn’t count.) It was a very final situation; each word of our conversation either pointed to the end of our friendship or a stronger one.

It turned into the latter. Ben took me to get a drink (first one in three or four days) and bought some Goldfish to share with me. We ditched our homeroom advisory period and just hung out. When it was time for his college class, he asked me to come to where he eats lunch, and he would buy me some food for lunch. I thanked him for his friendship and love, and we parted.

I was so happy when I walked into third period. It seemed like that was exactly what I needed.

So I just wanna say that I’m so thankful for my friends and for my God, and that I’m gonna try and be a different person from now on.